The Waiting Game

For those of you checking in, no new news today. However, I did have a wonderful dream about Maria Alejandra last night. She was finally with us forever, she was laughing and smiling. It was so obvious she was with her forever family and we were all incredibly joyous. So mabe that is a good sign that the news is coming soon. For those of you not personally on this journey but along for the ride, it is a strange place to be. I almost live in this surreal world sometimes of a cross between time flying by and time not moving at all. Life is still going and I am very conscience of not letting my stress about the adoption affect Rachael. Although the stress is like a heavy weight that never leaves, it is always there. It is funny how I feel "guilty" when people ask me what is going on with the adoption. "Guilty" as if I can do nothing to speed it up!! In that way, time stands completely still. I give them the same answer everytime, "we are just waiting....", I wish for me and for them there was more news. It seems like an eternity for all of us, for all waiting parents. I continue to feel fortunate that Maria is our child and that we have only had one Kick Out with our case. There are many others with horrific stories, still waiting. I pray for those families and for us that our case continues to move through, slowly but surely. I woke up today a little down, and while I was working through my feelings I knew just the cure...My favorite all time CD...Joni Mitchell's Greatest Hits!!! Very soothing for me and puts me right back on track!!! Once again, we are very blessed. Thanks for thinking of us!!